Dark Days

Many of us have heard of the "dark moments" term often used to describe difficult times in a race. How we handle those moments often means the difference between success and failure. I am in the midst of some serious "dark days" right now. I will spare all the details but suffice it to say, I am under immense pressure due the current market environment and how financial institutions are "performing". Some very difficult decisions are going to have to be made as a result. Aside from the overall funk I am in, I am also not motivated to train. Running provides such a much needed release for me and it is difficult to cope with all of this without it. I wish it were as easy as lacing up the shoes and heading to the trails, but I just don't have the motivation. Hopefully it will pass. I have always wondered if I don't suffer from depression from time to time. While I have never been diagnosed, it sure feels like it right now.

My situation is not all bad, I have a healthy body and the ability to pursue my adventure interests. Things could certainly be worse on the job front - I could be in the position of not having one. All of that said does bring perspective but doesn't makes things easier. Hopefully, I will push through all of this soon but until then I would appreciate your prayers and/or thoughts.